I have Issues

Testing …. trying. I find myself constantly testing the patience of the men around me. As soon as any drops of real emotion dew it’s like … I freak out. I don’t want it..it’s scares me. I’ll make a fight or fuss and fit until he’s forced to leave just so I have an excuse…

This much I’ve figured out

The necessity of God. When I was a child and there was still some innocence in me I believed in God because that is what I was told to believe in. I watched as tears from heaven fell down and kissed my windowsill and found faith in knowing that as God cried for me above…

Number 9 dream

If I loved you once, I love you again That was all he said before things went black. But before the love and before the dark came the visions of a man in a white suit hitting the water.. The river consumed him as he sank and soon the white of his attire was too…

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Originally posted on Kathryn L Christopher:
Fucking him made you feel lonely. Oh, dear, did you know how to love? How to hold his fingers, tattoo their prints on your skin? If all your knees know is the floor how could you have ever hoped to stand with him, run with him, you bend your…

Virgin sex

I don’t understand why people are so narrow minded about sex. Having sex doesn’t make you a woman and being sexy or comfortable in your sex doesn’t make you and less of one. We need to remove stigma and broaden our perception of sexuality, virginity, and acceptability… Why is there such a sterility associated with…

From the girls

From the girls who perk in the chill and frown with age: Why is it every depiction of sex focuses on the woman? Not her pleasure but her victimization, her domination. What about the man?  Why do I constantly have to be reminded of my “position” even in the one act that’s suppose to level…

Cleanse

So I’ve decided to go on somewhat of a spiritual cleanse… The last few days have been hard. Full of ups and down with my emotions raging inside of me. I feel constantly torn. Pressures. Boxed in. Censored. But I’m not sure if it’s me doing it to myself by letting others stifle me ..or…

Identity

Identity is fluid. Constantly changing and mirroring whatever version of “you” that may have existing in that moment of time. Who you are is never static. I believe in the right of reinvention. I believe this is a God given right that no man can take away from you but yourself. If God can come…