Nasty time

It bothers me that so much of my identy is attached to my virginity. I can’t go a day without worrying about losing it..being judged for it …or worse, rejected after its gone. I can’t make a move or express myself as a sexual being without the fear of a man questioning my integrity because…

I have Issues

Testing …. trying. I find myself constantly testing the patience of the men around me. As soon as any drops of real emotion dew it’s like … I freak out. I don’t want it..it’s scares me. I’ll make a fight or fuss and fit until he’s forced to leave just so I have an excuse…

This much I’ve figured out

The necessity of God. When I was a child and there was still some innocence in me I believed in God because that is what I was told to believe in. I watched as tears from heaven fell down and kissed my windowsill and found faith in knowing that as God cried for me above…